So many choices possible yet only a few can I come up with
Aware of my shortcomings I can’t make up my mind and choose
I fall into an ill-lighted mental maze
I panick and let fear paralyze me
no word comes out
no word forms in my mind
only images of your cold stare keep flashing
your words heavy from hurt keep ringing
spiralling around me
I can’t think
I can’t breathe
the slightest sigh of impatience from you
the briefest disapproving look
I tremble
I lose my mind
The best I can gather up is
“I have to think,
I have to speak”
But as these words circle in my head
I feel myself drowning more and more
I can barely see anymore
blurry visions of reality are all there is for me now
Please, pull me out of this suffocating abyss
Reach out to me
Please… Talk to me
